Friday, October 27, 2006

Really you are the great

Why are you not here to make me happy and relax after this traumatic work and lethal tension? This is only you with whom I felt cool even after my four days continuous journey or one month of hard training camp. From navaratri to Deepawali I missed you so much and you also know why? Your morning alarm and before leaving home you never forgot to remind me for going Kalikamata first. Your reproach for late lunch and dinner, chips and bananas on the day of Ashatmi, Teeka of Vijayadashmi and extra money for basketball or hockey stick. During the cleaning I always asked to replace my shields and momentous but you said, “ Tujhe kya pata kitni mehnat se aate hain ye sab” and you place those very gently as your own achievements. Loads of work and every work took place with the time just because of your planning, help and the most important your trust made me to bear all the responsibilities.
When all were in against of me you supported me for my workings and I could gain so much of experience from there. You created a world for my comforts and relaxation. Sometimes you imposed something but finally that made me efficient.
You were always aware that what was I doing, but you always showed your trust so I realise my mistakes.
I know you are in the same condition like me but we both are unable to meet at this time. This time is more panic than the duration I spend for TSC. I am desperate to see you and cry.
Now I understand deference between Yashoda and Deveki. Really it’s you and the sweet world made by you(family) which made me capable to take all those responsibility and understand all the relationships in my life.
I want you not for this life only but for every life

Thursday, October 05, 2006




Blood shedded platforms, scared people; crying women and children, everybody was running to save their lives. Is it scary, horrible or terrible? No! It is laughable for those terrorists who attack Indians daily all over the country whether it is Mumbai, Malegaon, Bangalore or parliament house. They can work any where and wreck the soul of this insecure country.

This is happening because of drawbacks of our security system. There is a huge communication gap between intelligence agencies and local police. The police cant get information directly from intelligence agencies. Like in the case of Kargil war our agencies gave the information about infiltration but due to communication gap that bloody war took place.

Second major problem with our intelligence agencies is that its officers are on the deputation from IAS, IPS and some other higher departments. Those officers who dont work there or dont want to work there are deputed in intelligence agencies. Thats why our government made these agencies as a dumping ground for such type of officers.

In India we have different police departments for different states and it creats so many problems for police itself to arrest any terrorist or illegal immigrants. And after crossing the borders they feel relaxed because it is difficult for police to catch them.

In the case of naxalites we have police but the constables dont belong to that place where they work. Due to this they are not familiar with those areas where naxalites live and dont know the paths which naxalites use.

The biggest problem with our security is corruption. Arms and ammunition of Indian difence are going to terrorists and our soldiers are fighting against their own arms. It is not done by any hawaldar or low designated person but it is an act of highly posted officers and politicians. So if we want to overcome such type of problems, first we have to fight against corruption and simultaneously work for upgradation of our security agencies and police force.
After doing all these we can think of living in a fearfree India.

Sunday, October 01, 2006


Today I am feeling different from other days of my life. I am in the same condition in which I was before three years. In these three years I felt that I'll never do this again but suddenly I brock my all the commitments and promises. It doesnt mean that I played mischief with someone. I am making fool myself but I am unable to protest this feeling which is growing rapidly in my mind, body and soul.

Yes I am in love!!

I dont know when it started in my busy life in which i dont have time to breath even. In this bone breaking life she makes me normal with her humorous statements, always fights with me when we are not in group but always stands with me when every one opposing me. She has all the qualities are not doesnt matter but has some qualities to make me happy and normal. I spend my most of time in a day with her and I think she also enjoys my company.

It is defficult for me to ask her, "I love her."

Will she deny me ?

Will she shout?
Will she hit me?

OR

She will be shy, hide her face with her palms and will run away.

What ever but I will love her upto end of my life. Because I feel love as The God and no body can leav God in his/her whole life.
In this world Two things are every where GOD and LOVE


SO, love people and loved by people.